Haiisx......depreessi0n agaiin...m0rn. mo0dd swiing...n0w at niite....w0rtsx mann....feeliing lky shiit n0ww...haiisx... the scars i habb.. n0w sh0 iitchy....haiisx...go0dd n0rrhsx...m0r and m0rr sia0sx recentlii.....dun0 narhhsx...beri tiired man... realli berii derr "dun0 wadd ii'm d0iin n0w n0rhh.." scho0l sh0 sarkk..... tiink g0iing change passw0rdd agaiin barhhsx....i dunn caress..... denn ppl wunn see nerhhsx...to0piid....

t0daee sure wass a sadd dae... Jiie liingg criiedd...yu jiing criiedd...hmm...bbe happy w0rhsx....heesx....ppl sae i'm crazii..i sae i'm n0t...ppl askk wadd are euu d0iin?...i sae i habb n0 iidea...tts wadd i'm iin n0ww.....jusx saeiing "i dun0" ....c0shh i realli dun0... i l0st the targett iin m0ii liife....g0d 0nce smackk miie t0 wakke upp...i diid......i'm n0t alwaes tt str0ngg..andd i fell d0wnn agaiin.....whenn i piierce m0ii liips m0iiself... fr0m denn i n0e..tt m0ii paiin was numbb... i'm n0t c0ld- blo0oded...i'm numbb.... maybbe n0t sh0 numbb...i feel paiin...but n0t as paiin as b4......

i habb n0 iidea yy i'm feeliing lky tiis all the whiile... i'm still searchiing...cn g0d puess tell miie? m0ii fwenns were all the same...butt i still c0uld n0t helpp dem....deyy t0ld miie deiir unhappii stuff.... i cn 0nlii liisten...deyy keep askiing miie wadd t0 dd0..i c0uldd onlii sae t0 m0iiself.." wadd euu wann miie t0 dd0?" i criied wiib n0 tearrs...guess iit jusx 0nlii meantt t0 fall when tym c0mes....

i feltt m0iiself ugliier dae byy dae.... fr0m the iinsiide...cn s0m0ne jusx cleanse iit awae..?scars tt everii0ne habb d0esn't jusx fade awae...butt i gues iits jusx hiiden deep d0wnn iinsiide.....sh0 tt iit will n0t bbe seen....when deyy fell d0wnn agaiin...the scarss will bbe aliive agaiin....andd iit hurtss 0nce m0rr....fr0m wadd i n0e... pr0miises made t0 miie were br0kenn...happii seems t0 miie were sh0rt.....freed0m giiven t0 miie seems t0 bbe t0 little... sisters seems t0 miie were to0 cariing....fwenns t0 miie ...deyy lett miie tiink deyy are jusx go0d..0rkiie..n0mall...parents seems t0 miie were liiars... go0d 0r badd...i dunn tiink i deserve 0r lky tiis.....

the cl0sest t0 miie was n0w Garll.....butt i'm n0t sure wadd am i t0 herr.... alth0ugh iits all 3....but jusx wann t0 sae thankk euu...i jusx dun0 yy...wadd happen t0 miie?.. andd agaiin...i dun0.....h0w cn i n0e the ans.? haiisx..t0talli n0 mo0d n0ww....siianss.... iish all iin m0ii miind...i keep telling m0ii self i habb nth t0 sadd abt... sadd wadd...wadd tiing t0 sadd...lame n0rhhsx...dun0 narhhsx... i dunn even n0e hhu i am.....

yy iisit tt ppl kcant habb faiith..lky tt denn wunn habb manii tings happen wadd...miie to0...HELP?!

And i´d give up forever to touch you ´
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You´re the closets to heaven that i´ll ever be
And I don´t wanna go home right now
And all I cant taste in this moment
And all I can breath is your life
And sonner or later it´s over
I just don´t wanna miss you tonight

And I don´t want the world to see me
´Cause I don´t think that they´d understand
When everything´s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can´t fight the tears that ain´t coming
Or the moments of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you´re alive.


heesx...miie lky tiis s0ng....mr liiew iintr0duce derr.....andd i LUVV the lyriics iit descriibe wadd sumtiings tt i kcant descriibe... co0ll...

all ii jusx wantedd iish t0 habb peace....!!* hergg....i kcantt standd iit mann...t0dae iin scho0l all the wae... renn till rchh h0me...waa denn s0bbsx...to0piid narrhsx...i jusx dun0 whyy n0rrsx...realli t0piid....i jusx realii h0pe t0 bbe n0t sh0 quiiet andd iis0latiing...but recently i jusx kcant takke iit... t0talli buanqqs 0utt..!!* sh0 angryy wiib m0iiself n0rhsx...i really dun0 why...***miie f0undd tt miie realli berii ugly iin sch..whiich iish go0d..mukakkasx..* duRRh.... denn diif. fr0m 0utsiide wadd.....keesx...*

cryy cryy cryy...cn res0lve pr0bb. arrhsx...??!!* butt 0ne tiing i n0e iish cn helpp reliieve th0se unhappy tiings ..f0rhh miie narhhsx...heeesx..* n0 water b0ttle agaiins....herggg..!! miiserablee!!........am ii f0ll0wiing m0ii sis. fo0tstepps..? tts herr pr0bb. wadd...miie and herr..t0talli diiff. wadd....she habb herr liife wadd..... duRRh...wadd am ii t0kiing uhh...??!!** siia0sx niia0sx.....all i n0e iish i'm changiing....o0ohh yarr..sii's hanndd kena iinjuredd....denn she sae better n0w nerrhsx...denn go0dd n0rhsx....miie f0und 0ut tt miie lky realli dun0 H0W t0 carre f0rrh 0therrs n0rrsx....lky berii useless nehhsx...

Dun0 miie derr ppl c0rfiirm tiink tt miie harttless derr...fwenn 0r hhueva sadd miie nv an weii... fwen 0r hhu eva g0t pr0b. miie nv helpp.... iish N0T ii dunn caress... I CARESS ALOT!!!!butt ii jusx dun0 h0Ww t0 caress...tt sarkksx...0mg i criied agaiin! t00piid

haiisx... yy i jusx kcantt bbe miie...to0piid...cann sae kann nii yao bbu yao 0nlii wadd...butt denn h0rrhsx....*euu tiink easyy mehhsx....haiisx...dunn feel lky g0iing scho0l n0rrhsx...everiitym giib Mdm Tay nagg...ddo nth also kena nagg 0rr sc0lded....lkyy tt g0 0n.. miie really can burstt.....haiisx..**t0ddae t0talli berii siians n0rrsx...wh0le dae dun0 wadd the hell i'm t0kiing 0r d0iin mann...*0nlii n0e iish tt keep wiishiing i'm dreamiing....d0rtsx* tiis Sat. g0 run 2.4 agaiin....run lky siia0sx...best iish run till diie arrhsx...hehsx...hahsx..sh0 funnii..duRRh...**

t0dae...b0th Qi nad Si g0t less0nn...miie al0ne!!....denn iin the end g0 t0 Sii's less0n...sh0 extra n0rrhsx.... hp n0 batt..t0talli siians....denn less0n endd...g0rr bo0m iin the class...sae miie....haiisx...s0rwiie n0rrsx..i ap0l0giise niia0sx...*but pueesx jusx seewadds the wh0le situatii0n den dehhsx..hehsx...n0t hiinting 0r tryiing t0 sae aniitiing narrhsx...butt den i'm tiired n0rrsx...jusx wan t0 bbe al0ne n0rrsx...but pueesx...can dun bbe iin scho0l....???!**0rkiies narrsx..miie try t0 bbe unn0tiiceable andd quiiet as p0ssible narhhsx...d0rtsx....*

n0 narhhsx...miie realli iis0latiing mann.....dun0 narhhsx...jusx tiis few daes...antii-s0ciial ...hhahsx...n0 narrsx..duRRh...n0t funni...aniiwae....tmrr SS test ...nd studyy n0rrsx...musx realli chii0ng f0rhh 0s mann...heesx..* i sae i wunn cryy...butt.. i criied t0dae...!! to0piid!**.....dunn askk yy...jusx beiing crazyy...beiing miie iish sh0 diificult...tts diisgustiing...dun0 narrhsx...berii d0wn jiiu shii nerrhsx....tmr an0ther dae...g0 after scho0l g0 h0me......n0 narhhsx...tiink g0t stayy a whiile barhhsx..see n0rrsx..n0t i deciide wad..* i kcant d0 aniiting...

siince tiis iish m0ii bl0gg riite...pueesx all0w miie t0 dd0 sumtiing..but dun bbe sh0ckk...jusx t0 fa xiie....i'm hurtt




MDM TAY SARRK

Your Life Path Number is 9

Your purpose in life is to make the world better You are very socially conscious and a total idealist. You think there are many things wrong with the world, and you want to fix them. You have a big idea of how to world could be, and you'll sacrifice almost anything to work towards this dream. In love, you can easily see the beauty in someone else. And you never cling too tightly. You are capable of great love, but it's hard for you to focus your love on one person or relationship. You have a lot of outward focus, and you tend to blame the world for your failures. You are often disappointed by the realities of life - it's hard for you to accept the shortcomings of the world.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

Hmm... miie deciided t0 lett everii tiing g0 nerrsx..but sl0wlii narrsx...heesx...* hmm...t0dae jiie fuu's biirthdae... happi Biirthdae t0 hiim w0rrsx...!**

tiinqs i hatte::*
Beiing f0rce t0 d0 tiinqs
kena diisturbb when miie iin badd mo0dd
Kena accuse (esp. byy parents 0rr cl0se fwens)
Betrayerrs
pPl wh0 dunn undersstandd miie but ACT as iif
Hyp0criites
backstabbers
naggerrs
freed0m - stealerr
b0ssy
serri0us attitude pr0b. ppl
c0piiers

hhahsx...guess whyy miie wriite tiis?...heesx...c0shh miie wan see h0w manii tings i hatte marrsx....actualli 0rkiies narrsx lky tt see...butt iif g0t aniim0rr miie will updatte derrsx..heesx..* meii y0u quann li fangg qii derr renn... nii men juee de ta y0u zii y0u marr> haii shii ke liian..?* ...hmm... miie tiink berii l0ngg nehhsx...but denn still dun0...siianss...tmrr g0t PHysiics trest...miie ph0rg0t sehhsx....arr...shiit....

ii w0nderr hhu hatte miie mann.....miie bec0me lky tiis....i w0nderr h0w manii ppl dun lky miie.....hmm...** m0ii bl0gg. 0rkiies narrsx..n0t l0ngg wadd......g0rr alwaes sae i wriite sh0 manii tiings...hahhsx....o0ohh yarr...ytdd...0rall...chiinese derrsx...g0shh...miie damn nerv0us mann...denn iin the endd 0ral berii fast n0e...denn iish easyy narr...butt tiink m0ii nerrv0us-ness kena affectted m0ii perf0rmance narrsx.....hmm...

t0dae als0 berii tiired...butt denn h0rrsx...als0 lky tt 0ver nersx..quiite fastt mann....* yawnn..* heesx...yeahh..nd t0 tankk khee br0. ...fiinalli b0ught miie ch0co. but denn h0rrsx...melt iint0 liiquiid...yuckks m ann...* but thx aniiwae...wakakkak...* aiiyarsx...dun tiink i wann wriite aniim0rr..miie g0 br0wse txtbkk nerrsx..hahsx..buaiisx _ .

HEESX.....depressi0nn t0dae...dun0 yy...heesx*......ehhsx...yeahh...g0t a neww vo0do0 d0ll..keesxheesx* m0ii babii n0e...realli lky iit...n0t bec0shh iits a vo0do0 butt cutte..heesx....stress arrsx...tmrr 0ral...hmm....* hengg t0dae n0t muchh hmwrkk...miie g0iin t0 sleep earlii mann..nth cn st0p miie..muhAAhaasx.....duRRh....hmm...* realli siianss andd dun0 yy sad sadd derr n0rrsx....heeesx..tiink c0shh miie n0t enuff slpp..??! duRRh...n0 liink...**

hmm...* tiinkiin tt iif 0ne daee i am t0 cryy jusx lky tt...n0 matter where i am...tiink miie frm tt dae wldd bbe weakk mann....but wunn narrsx...heesx*.... t0dae t0kk liittle biit biit wiib Qi Qi...denn 0rkiies n0rrsx....Si miie andd Qii..... haiisx miie Qi iish lky an0ther type...sii an0ther type...miie... iin the miiddle....tts h0rriible...!!* hahhsx..duRRh....* l0nq tym neberr wriite bl0g nerrsx...h0pe cn wriite l0ng l0ng....hmm....latelii dun feel lky t0kiin t0 parents 0r g0iin h0me mann... t0k ardd 4th sentence...tiink will quarrel niia0sx...m0mmi alwaess giib attitude... sh0 tiiredd nerr...*

dunn miind iif i putt "*" ....heeesx...jusx feel lky putiin sh0.. *bwiinqs...wadd cn i d0....haiisx..saedd iish easiier denn d0ne..... siians diia0sx...(duRRh..n0w askk hmwrkk als0 n0b0dyy replii miie....) haiisx..*kiies go0dd g0t replii niia0sx...d0rtss..yeahh...all hmwrkk chii0ngg fiinishh iin sch nerrsx...go0dd....*miie liisten t0 m0ii bl0g s0ngg dun0 h0w manii tymss narrsx....liisten untill cn ...d0rtsx.....nehh miindd....

tmrr 0ral... realli berii scaedd nehhsx...hergg...dunn tiink to0 muchh barrsx..heesx...maybbe lett the tiings g0 the wae iit shldd g0 barrsx...fangg xiia...tiink i habb to0 man man laii n0rrsx..heesx..* denn bbe str0ngg...hahasx...c0mfiirm wun see miie sadd iin fr0nt 0f ppl derrsx...sh0... nehh miind...heesx.* denn bbe happi...hmm...tiink cn barrsx...**



A giirl 0nce askk herr...
Are euu sure t0 ch0ose tiis path?
Wiith0ut hesiitatii0n, she ran aheadd
Forrh she kneww dere was n0 turniinq backk..
she will n0t giib upp, even she will bbe sadd...
Alongg tiis path, she habb 0bstacles..
May iit bbe blo0dyy scarrs 0r anii iinjuriies...
She pr0miise herself t0 cliimb as hiigh as bef0re...
Even iif she fall... n0thiing c0uldd st0p herr persistant
T0 bbe str0ngg......



Co0l...heesx..* m0ii f0undd tiis iin sum webb...hmm.. sh0rt butt n0t badd narrsx...heesx...* iif iish miie wriite derrsx...tiink huii bbu xiiang xiing barrsx...duRRH....heesx* haiisx...tmrr will bbe happi agaiin n0rrsx.... denn cn relax a biit...iin 0ral als0...relaxx better...denn g0 h0me denn stress....d0rtsx..lky tt als0 cn...** hhahsx...gu0 l0ngg nerr marrsx..siians diiaosx niiaosx... BUAIISX

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